Christian Proposal : How to Navigate Proposal as a Young Lady (Part 5)

 

 Finding feet...too soon.

It would not be that easy to put away the lovey dovey times that Jessica had experienced with Dans Akins off her mind. The memories still lingered and she was quite reluctant in letting go.  They blurred her vision from seeing the beautiful future that God had planned for her. Many nights of confusion wedged her thoughts - periods that she would hold unto a thin line, hoping that Dans Akins will take their relationship seriously by warring in prayers. There were also times that she had believed that God wouldn’t be disregard the conjoined prayers of two love birds. 

Yet, Jessica found her feet- her balance, too soon.

Jessica dwelled more in God’s presence, read her bible and seek for counselling. But in all, her price was far above rubies. Her kind of woman, as advised by her counsellor would not have been able to be  managed by Dans Akins. The counsellor understood her worries unspoken. He emphasized that several hurdles crossed by Dans Akins might not have mattered now, because what actually matter would be whether he still believed in their soon-to-be union.

“Dear Jessica, I am not saying that you left him because he cheated on you, or he did one or two things you are not okay with. I am only saying that it was worth it that you left him, simply because he no longer believes in your eventual union. He was never meant for you. You can never trust the arms of flesh.”

“But sir, what about the way I had ended the relationship? Could it have been any milder or it was all my fault?”

“Never mind. You are far above rubies. You deserve the best!”

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Few days after the counsel and same time when Dans Akins had began to lose touch with her, Mr. Emmanuel called. His calls were usually occasional, just like this one.

“Hello. Good evening Jessica, how are you?” “Good evening sir. I am very fine and you?”

“I am very well, guess you are counting down to your passing out parade. You sure enjoyed your service year?”

“Well, I am. Though we still have two months left.”

“C’mon, what then is left than to be folding your khaki into your box while you await the time you are issued your NYSC certificate”

“Who am I to argue with you? My emeritus corper!” 

“About my proposal, what are you saying?”

“Bro Emmanuel, I  am still praying. I haven't gotten  a confirmation yet.”

 “Good news. You wanna hear?” 

“What is it?”

“I have several confirmations on ground, I believe this leading is divine.”

“But God would never put the other in the dark now.”

“Jessica, only open up your heart, God is faithful and he will show you. This is a journey you will never regret embarking on.”

Jessica exhaled deeply and dropped the phone a bit distant from her.

When the spirit of God is leading you to the right one, you will know. Because, He will speak to your spirit and not your flesh.

“God! this Bro Emmanuel must be a ‘wizard’, how could he tell so right that I have been struggling with the truth, for days now. How could he be so sure and convinced about the leading in his proposal that even my spirit would leap up at his words?”. Jessica mused.

Bro Emma was right and her spirit was leading her to him. Even, if she had not seen the ‘greatest’ of all confirmations yet, the Spirit leading was the most crucial

"But Bro Emmanuel, I just got off one, can I have some ample time to have more confirmations?”

To Mr. Emmanuel, Jessica had just secretly confirmed an instance in his thought that he’d been praying about.

How the Spirit of God works will forever be mysterious to the human mind.

Mr. Emmanuel smiled and accepted to wait for her, but he was interested in how she would feel through the breakup process with Dans Akins. So, he asked.

“Please, give me a chance to press further, Jessica. How would you get over your relationship with Dans Akins?”

“I have ended it” 

“How?”

“It is a long story, sir”

“I will never be bored of listening.”’

It was a secret pattern that she had used to test the eventual depth of her soon-to-be union with Dans Akins. She had never intimated Dans about why she did it, Hadassah never knew the ‘trick’ she had employed, but she would be telling Mr. Emmanuel, because he did not speak of himself and she felt that it was the right thing to do.

                    

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Jessica never thought about this, but she had a feeling that telling him straight-off that their relationship was over, might not work for both of them. Dans Akins sure know how to re-ignite her feelings once more and they would mercilessly fall in love again. So she picked up her phone, scrolled through the Text message App and relaxed for an inspiration to come.

When the inspiration came, it made her to take the form of another Brother challenging Dans Akins through a text. She wrote so well that the ‘unknown bro’, instinctively dug through Dan Akins' lapses and gave him instances to reconsider. In the anonymous text that she had created, she mentioned that when a relationship heading to marriage lacks a spiritual strength, all other aspects are not permitted to survive. After a work well done, she ended it anonymously. 

Dans Akins would forever think that some other guy used her line to do this. Satisfied with this method she had used, she earnestly prayed that the swift whisper of ‘you will regret this’ would never come to a reality.

As soon as Dans saw the text message, he calmly called back in a strange way and hinted that she had been cheating. That he even struggled to believe her sincerity all these while. No questions from his angle that could be based as searching. Not even a proper investigation was initiated from his end . Above all, there was never a word of spiritual conviction to back him and the love that he professed. 

At this point, it got very obvious that they were never meant to be!

It was a hard thing to do, but she found peace!

Oh! What a great peace that flooded her soul. 

In the eyes of Jessica, Dans Akin looked spiritually dry and already detached from her future. Staying quiet all these while was because she had not find the perfect way to call it quit with him. Nevertheless, she was thankful that in his deepest of imagination, he would never know that she was the ‘unknown bro’ behind the scene. 

That the text message was meant to be an adjustable or detachable one for them. That her feelings for him were real but she needed God because the man for her doesn’t have to develop a repertoire of knowledgeable skills on how to deal with his woman. He only have to seek God’s backing and watch his woman’s desires fall in place, one by one.